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Songs

“There’s always gonna be another mountain, I’m always gonna wanna make it move, Always gonna be an uphill battle, sometimes I’m gonna have to lose” – The Climb, Miley Cyrus

I love the message of this song. Especially since I feel that I’m climbing towards a mountain where every step forward takes me two steps back. It’s been 6 months since I started with my developmental assignment and in those months I’ve been tested, embarrassed and chewed out that I have reached the point where I don’t want to continue on anymore. But I am still here, facing the same battles over and over again, losing everyday yet still climbing on. I just hope that in the end I get to the top because I know that the view is great.

“You’re gonna miss this. You’re gonna want this back. You’re gonna wish these days hadn’t gone by so fast. These are some good times, so take a good look around, you may not notice now, but you’re gonna miss this” – You’re Gonna Miss This – Trace Adkins

But at the end of each tiring day there is still a smile in my face. Because even though there are times I get home during the wee hours of the morning, I know that I will wake up to my husband’s hug and the breakfast he brings for me.

I treasure every weekend we spend together whether it be just staying home to watch movies or tv together or go out on a date, these are moments that I am surely going to value.

“There goes my life. There goes my future, my everything, I love you.” - There Goes My Life, Kenny Chesney

And I continue looking forward to the future, standing on top of the mountain that I have conquered, with my husband beside me and hopefully with toddlers running around us.

And I look forward to:

“The first steps when they stumble, first words that they mumble. First ball that they fumble, and they try to hide the tears. Her Cinderella palace, the bike he learns to balance. Take a look around, yeah, right now are the golden years” – Golden Years, Willie Mack

Dreams

I had the weirdest dream.

And it felt so real.

I dreamed that my mom was not my biological mother.

I dreamed that my dad had a relationship with a girl from #93 Balete, Quezon City. It is so weird because I can still remember the exact address.

I dreamed how my mom showed me the picture of my biological mother.

I dreamed how it all made sense to me. Of how I had cousins that did not come from any side of the family I knew. Of how it made sense why my mom always favored my brother.

I dreamed that I went and looked at my biological mother’s house with my husband.

I dreamed that I ran when I saw her but I couldn’t leave because there were coconut trees blocking my car’s path.

And then I woke up…

I’ve never had a dream like this in a while. I really believed it...