I didn’t care about it. I didn’t hope for anything because I didn’t want to get disappointed in the end. I wasn’t even sure if I could do it. I just went and did everything that I needed to do in order to survive not hoping that I will get something out of it.
And now after 9 months, It’s happening. I am nervous that I may not meet up to expectations; that they may ask for more than I am willing to give. But as always, I know I will survive. I may stumble along the way, people may talk behind my back but I will not care. I will do what is necessary and prove that I deserve this.
Even if I want to look apathetic, even if I want to seem like I do not care, I must admit that it’s still a different feeling to see my name above a title that I have been working for to achieve. I am happy yet terrified at the same time. There were a few moments in my life that I felt like this too. First was when I got accepted at the Ateneo. I was happy to be privileged to get that education yet scared that I may not fit in with all the honor students there. Second was when I got married. I was happy yet scared because I will be sharing everything with my husband forever. And now this.
I thank God for the opportunities that he continues to give me and I pray that he will continue to guide me so that I may be able to fulfill what is asked of me.
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