The world is spinning…

My world is spinning…

I am falling…

I see him everywhere…

I take a deep breath and I smell him in the air…

I can feel him there…

I know I’m safe…

I see him smiling, sitting in front of me, and drinking his coffee…

He animatedly tells me about his adventures….

We laugh….

He invites me to stand in the rain with him….

He asks me one question…

I say Yes….

I can stay in this dream forever

Bakit ba kita minamahal?

Bakit nga ba? Ang dami kong maaaring sabihin sayong dahilan. Pero kung iisipin may isang sagot lamang dito: Wala kasing dahilan para hindi ka mahalin.

Hindi ko sinasabi na perpekto ka. Aaminin kong may mga pagkakataon din na napapaiyak ako dahil sayo. Pero isinasantabi ko ang lahat ng iyon. Ang mas importante ay ang nararamdan kong pagibig sayo.

Ilang beses na kong umibig. Ilang beses na ring nakaranas na ibigin. Pero kahit kailan hindi pa ako naging ganito kasaya sa pag-ibig. Sa pagkakataong ito, ang gaan gaan ng pakiramdam. Ngayon lang ako umibig na sang-ayon ang pamilya ko sa taong iniibig ko. Pero hindi lang iyon, ngayon lang kasi ako umibig ng buong buo. Pag-gising ko ikaw, sa pagtulog ikaw, sa panaginip ikaw…palagi na lang ikaw. =) ( pero di ako nagrereklamo ha)

Ang daming kong ipagpapasalamat sayo:

 Dahil sa yo nanunuod na ulit ako ng mga cheesy at mushy na romantic movies at hindi na ako nagiging bitter pagkatapos.
 Dahil sayo hindi na mga sad songs at ‘getting over you’ songs ang pinakikingan ko.
 Dahil sayo mas masaya ang pasko ko
 Dahil sayo masaya ang mga gising ko sa umaga dahil alam kong mabibilang ko lang ang araw at magkikita na tayo ulit.
 Dahil sayo nagfo-forward na ulit ako ng mga love quotes (feel na feel ko na kasi cya ulit hehe )
 Dahil sayo may insiparsyon ako
 Dahil sayo MASAYA AKO

Ganun lang kasimple yun: Masaya ako. Ibang klaseng kaligayahan lalo na at alam ko na napapaligaya din kita. Nabasa ko dati sa peyups na falling in love and staying in love is stupid daw. Kung totoo nga yon, I am the stupidest person siguro.

Hinahanap hanap ko dati yung happy ending ko…Mali pala, hindi pala happy ending ang makukuha ko.

Happy beginning pala –

Beginning kasi wala ng katapusan tong pagmamahalan na to.

Mahal kita!

What will I remember the most from the year that has passed?

I will remember Valentine's day which I spent with my other single college friends in Anne's house. We stayed overnight and had a lot of fun.

I will remember an orgmate of mine who made February 29th a very special day. In the midst of all my studying for my last final oral exams in college, he showed up at my door with flowers and inspired me to ace my exams the next day.

I will remember my last month of college at the Ateneo. March was full of unforgettable experiences - the senior's outing in Quezon, hanging out and just watching movies, attending area without worrying about exams or papers to do, walking to riverbanks to ride the bump cars, going to UP to eat isaw with my friends, and most especially graduation day.

I will remember my vacation with my cousins and how cute Ate Gladys' twin daughters are.

I will remember my first months of being unemployed. Just bumming around in the house and being a couch potato. I would watch DVDs the whole day long. Waking up late and just doing anything I want, reconnecting with my high school friends and getting all the chismis about our other batchmates.

I will remember my first ever job as a research associate for a headhunting firm. How I was bored out of my wits with what I am doing and how I hated my superior. I lasted for a month and then couldn't bear it anymore so I quit. I liked my co-workers though and the internet access the whole day long.

I will remember occassionally going out with a friend from the Ateneo. It was very weird because of all the history between us but he was sweet and took care of me for a while.

I will remember being heartbroken. I won't say anymore about this because I know I have said too much.

I will remember starting my current job. Meeting new friends in the office. Getting frustrated with all the chismis going around. But I will also remember all that I have learned and learning in my current job.

I will remember Ate Cel's wedding. I think I have written about that here before.

And lastly, I will remember falling in love like I have never loved before. This time I am giving my all. This time there is no fooling around. This time, I hope, will be the last time.

Whew, what a year....